It's That Time of the Year- Politics!

In my opinion, politics are unnecessary and annoying. In a nutshell, it's basically one rich person yelling to another rich person about why they should be the one to have the power. There were only a few good Presidents that I really liked. Obama, and a dead guy.

Trump is a narcissistic, racist, homophobic, ignorant excuse for a leader. I have so much to say on this issue, and I have no clue where to begin. I guess I'll start with his tweets. If there is one thing that we were tought from Trump's time in office, it's that none of the Presidents should have any big social media accounts. Oh, and also that the US is rapidly declining. Everyone is complaining about how he's our President, but you were the people who voted him in, were you not? So don't complain when he does something stupid. This mess if your fault!

Back to his Tweets. From stuff I've heard, doesn't he write them at 2 in the morning on his golden toilet? Like first off, why? Second off, WHY?? The stuff he says is so wrong, and so stupid. Like he isn't afraid to tweet shit to other world leaders, but won;t even release his own damn tax returns?? Like what the actual shit.

I also hate him because he's the guy who banned transgender people from serving in the military. Like what the fuck. We have a better chance of defeating Russia or some shit with them in the military. More people, the better right?? And now he wants to completely erase the trans people from legal existence. Like how the hell did you get people to vote for you if your a transphobic douchebag?

Instead of focusing on important things(like I don't know, focus on global warming?!?), his administration doing stuff against trans people such as:

1. Trying to make it legal for people to be fired for being trans
2. Making it OK to deny people service if they are LGBT
3. Arguing that it's OK to fire people for being gay

WE DO NOT LIVE IN THE FUCKING 1960's ANYMORE.  Goddamn. It's fucking 2019. I can love whoever the hell I want. Didn't we say this in 2015 when same sex marriage was legalized? Didn't we say this in 2016 when Eric Fanning, the first openly gay secretary in a military branch, was appointed? Didn't we say this in 2017 when trans people were allowed to enlist in the military? Now that choice has been taken away from us.

I feel like were going to be saying this each year when something positive happens to us, only to have it taken away again. 

Enough about this. I'm gonna go see if I can breath underwater in a fish tank filled with piranhas. Better than paying attention to politics in my opinion.

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-Jordan

Edit- I forgot to source these articles
https://www.cnn.com/2015/06/19/us/lgbt-rights-milestones-fast-facts/index.html
https://medium.com/james-finn/the-trump-assault-on-lgbtq-5d9aab6f786b

My Beef With Christian People

*Disclaimer~ I am not hating on this religion, I just have beef with the people(rightfully so, as I am entitled to my own opinions. Hopefully. Or has Trump taken that away too?? More on him later). I am not discouraging people from being religious, or hating on this particular religion, I am just saying what I believe and why. I do not hate any religion. Please don't come after my ass, there are enough people who already hate me.*

(Side note- this was originally going to be about inspiring passages from the Bible, but I got bored.)

OK, OK. Let me start off by saying I am a devout atheist. I used to believe in a god. Not God, specifically. My mother's side of the family is Zen Buddhist. Again, I am an atheist. I go to church when I have to, for funeral stuff. But I will point out that there are differences between a god and God. A god refers to a superhuman being or spirit (thanks Google). God refers to the Christian one. I used to believe in a god (again, more on that later, I feel like I say that too much).

My Beef with Christianity

I only have stuff with this one because of the whole LGBT community. JESUS HAD TWO DADS AND WAS BI CURIOUS. YOU GUYS WORSHIP HIM. LEAVE THE GAYS ALONE. I know that one of the old versions of the Bible (or something) says "If there is a man who lies with a male as those who lie with a woman, both of them have committed a detestable act.” God’s Word says the homosexual act is detestable; it is an abomination. Leviticus 20:13" OK, so I would like to take this moment to point out the fact that, in the Bible, David wants to marry Michal, the daughter of Saul. Saul's all like, "Oh hell no. If you want her, go get me 100 Philistine foreskins." Of course, David agrees. He goes and kills 200 Philistines, manhandles their man parts and chops of their foreskin. If that ain't gay, then I don't know what is.  

My point is, the Bible says whatever. That doesn't mean that everyone needs to say "homosexuality is a sin. The Bible said it, so it's true!" I would also like to take this time to point out that Jesus murders a fucking fig tree. I know that's beside the point, but I really wanted to say that.

Back to the gay stuff- God wants people to be happy. He loves you. If he wants everyone to be happy, then why would he see homosexuality as a sin? If you can explain it to me better, please, tell me how loving the same sex is a sin!!! OK, but like again, I am not hating on the religion. I know a bunch of Christians who are accepting of the LGBT community. Then again, I know a bunch who aren't.

Articles that helped me write this-
https://www.buzzfeed.com/tomchivers/call-me-bald-again-i-double-dare-you
https://www.livingout.org/the-bible-and-ssa
http://www.firstdallas.org/icampus/blog/what-god-says-about-homosexuality/
https://io9.gizmodo.com/7-moments-in-the-bible-when-jesus-acted-very-un-jesus-l-1731054203

Just... love is love. Weather it be between a man and a woman or a man and a man or a woman and a woman, love is love. You can love whoever the hell you want, who cares if you go to hell. We're already in hell, aren't we? Look at out "president".

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-Jordan

Depression Music pt. 2

Anyways, hi. I'm existing. I finally got off my ass and decided to start writing at... *looks at time* 12:34 AM. I am such a loser sometimes... But what's new with that? I always have been. Oh another great quality of mine! I am very self deprecating.

But here are more songs that are equally depressing, and why I love 'em.

1. The World is Ugly- written by My Chemical Romance. I love this song. It's basically everything I want to ask to people- 'this world fucking sucks, but do you love me enough to even think of me? I always think of you. No matter what. I want to go, but I can't. I need you.' So yea, basically another whirlpool of my depression and stuff. 
2. Disenchanted- another MCR(My Chemical Romance) song. Honestly, I can't really get anything that depressing out of this song. It's just a really nice song that I can cry to when I want to die. I do that a lot. Cry and think about death. I am so fucking weird... but my favorite lines from the song are "I spent my high school career, spit on and shoved to agree. So I could watch all my heros sell a car on TV" To me, it's just showing everything we loved comes to an end. We are always lesser beings, and there is someone better than us.
3. This is Gospel (Piano version)- written by Panic! at the Disco. Ok, where the hell do I start with this one. "The fear of falling apart" Two of my greatest fears are hurting the people I truly care about, and falling apart when they need me the most. I always feel like I need to be there, since I'm always pretty much the youngest wherever I go. I should always be watching out for the people older than me, and put there feelings before mine. "If you love me, let me go. These words are knives that often leave scars, the fear of falling apart. Truth be told, I never was yours, the fear, the fear of falling apart." I get told so much stuff, and eventually I can't feel anything anymore. That doesn't mean I don't get hurt though.
4. The Ghost of you- more MCR. Honestly, the video made me cry more than the words did. But this is more about the lyrics than the videos. "At the end of the world, or the last thing I see, you are. Never coming home, never coming home, and all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me. For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me..." To me this song is honestly about regrets. I have so many in my life, and I have so many ghosts that I want to leave behind but I can't. 

OK. Enough music and thought and stuff. Go check out these songs, they are so good and amazing and yes I need so much help sometimes. 

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-Jordan

Lemons and why they are a good fruit

Is it legal to throw lemons at people who annoy me? Most likely not. But who knows?

Lemons are the most underrated fruit. Why in the ever living hell am I writing about lemons?? I need so much help.

But back to talking about why lemons are underappreciated. They are literally so cute. you see all these cute little lemon drawings. BECAAUSE THEYRE LEMONS OMG ITS A FUCKING LEMON JUST GET OVER IT THEY ARE LITERALLY THE BEST THINGS IN THE WHOLE GODDDAMN WORLDPDHSGIOAFLDK,MJHKJHK

ok ok im done. i like lemons.

Depression Music pt. 1

Here is a condensed (not really) list of songs and why they helped me (somewhat) through depression. This list will mostly be BTS songs. Guess I'll do the fancy clicky link magic.

1. The Truth Untold- This song means a lot to me. It is basically about a person who can't bring themself to show their true self to their lover. Instead, he plants someone new, someone who isn't themselves, but a replica. Basically me when I was in my first relationship, and I was kinda not ok. 
2. Magic Shop- This one is kinda something I would listen to after crying for a while. Yes. We know. I am a weird little shit head. But the lyrics are pretty deep, as are all BTS songs. "When I hate being myself, when i just want to disappear forever, I open one door, and there I was in your heart". It's basically describing a place that I wish I had. I still don't trust myself to let others see the vulnerable side of me, so this kinda (sorta, not really) gave me solace in a way.
3. Let Go- In a way, this is kind of a suicide song. I know that wasn't the original purpose, (I think it was going to be their last song but it wasn't) but in a way the songs says, it's ok to go. "In order to release your hand right now, I gotta let you know that I need you to let go. Hard to say goodbye, but I can't run." To me, it's saying, you can go. We'll be okay. This also brings back memorie of a close friend, but I'll write that later.

Well I really don't feel like analyzing more BTS songs. It is 1:48 here in the morning, and I am to sleepy to do it, but not tired enough to go to sleep. Instead I will think more about what to write and not die.

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-Jordan

Why I'm ready for death pt. 1

To start off, let me quote one of my favorite TV characters, Dr. Gregory House from House M.D. "Everybody lies." I mean, he isn't wrong. A lot of people I know lie like anything to me. They don't really care about me as long as they gain the stuff they need.

Another reason- my trust issues. Most people have daddy issues or something, but like I have trust issues. I don't like humanity in general, but like the people I used to trust ruined that completely for me. I trust like 4? 5? People. Hint: they aren't my parents, I have my reasons. Gimme a break.

A lot of people give me homophobic/transphobic garbage that I don't care for. After a while, it gets old. Like, I don't care. You aren't bugging me. You're just,wasting your life doing shit you won't do later or whatever. Go do somthing "constructive" like not being a dickwad.

I should make a list of songs/quotes that really mean a lot to me and helped me through my depression. It may or may not be pretty long. Who knows.🤷🏻‍♂️
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-Jordan

Intro

Hi, I'm Jordan. So yea. I am 14, ready for death, and whatever else.  I'll probbly end up posting gay/emo/weird shit. I also swear way too much.

I am female to male, and gay. If your homophobic/transphobic, that's kinda your problem. So don't give me garbage about it.

BTS is probably my favorite band along with My Chemical Romance.

Also I have a boyfriend. So like haha bitches.

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-Jordan