Depression Music pt. 2

Anyways, hi. I'm existing. I finally got off my ass and decided to start writing at... *looks at time* 12:34 AM. I am such a loser sometimes... But what's new with that? I always have been. Oh another great quality of mine! I am very self deprecating.

But here are more songs that are equally depressing, and why I love 'em.

1. The World is Ugly- written by My Chemical Romance. I love this song. It's basically everything I want to ask to people- 'this world fucking sucks, but do you love me enough to even think of me? I always think of you. No matter what. I want to go, but I can't. I need you.' So yea, basically another whirlpool of my depression and stuff. 
2. Disenchanted- another MCR(My Chemical Romance) song. Honestly, I can't really get anything that depressing out of this song. It's just a really nice song that I can cry to when I want to die. I do that a lot. Cry and think about death. I am so fucking weird... but my favorite lines from the song are "I spent my high school career, spit on and shoved to agree. So I could watch all my heros sell a car on TV" To me, it's just showing everything we loved comes to an end. We are always lesser beings, and there is someone better than us.
3. This is Gospel (Piano version)- written by Panic! at the Disco. Ok, where the hell do I start with this one. "The fear of falling apart" Two of my greatest fears are hurting the people I truly care about, and falling apart when they need me the most. I always feel like I need to be there, since I'm always pretty much the youngest wherever I go. I should always be watching out for the people older than me, and put there feelings before mine. "If you love me, let me go. These words are knives that often leave scars, the fear of falling apart. Truth be told, I never was yours, the fear, the fear of falling apart." I get told so much stuff, and eventually I can't feel anything anymore. That doesn't mean I don't get hurt though.
4. The Ghost of you- more MCR. Honestly, the video made me cry more than the words did. But this is more about the lyrics than the videos. "At the end of the world, or the last thing I see, you are. Never coming home, never coming home, and all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me. For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me..." To me this song is honestly about regrets. I have so many in my life, and I have so many ghosts that I want to leave behind but I can't. 

OK. Enough music and thought and stuff. Go check out these songs, they are so good and amazing and yes I need so much help sometimes. 

✌️

-Jordan